a · little · nep's · life · in · paris

i saw this girl in the metro back in october, and i swear if i were a man, i think i would have fallen in love!! un coup de foudre....

anyway, i'm at the eve of my departure and i'm hopelessly trying to fit 7yrs of my life into 25 kilos...somehow. if it seems impossible, then believe me it is!!

my heart has swollen up to thrice it's size, my stomach is in knots, i feel so nervous and wonder and ask myself if i am doing the right thing. i know paris will always be here for me, it is after all where i grew up and set me to be the woman i am starting to turn into. i have had a lovely time here, making life what it is, meeting the people i have, who've practically been like my second family to me. over the week i have had one or two teary good byes from people i will not see tonight. it's made me realise how much i have come to feel at home here even though this is far from being 'chez moi'.

thank you all for everything. thank you for the laughs and tears and the blinding flashes!! now i wish i had more time to spend but then i know what i am doing is for the right set of reasons and although it seems scary right now, i will definately get over it, since i am going home.

the reckless immature part of me wants to say 'bon allez une derniere bonne torchade!!!' ('ok one last pissed night out on the town') but then the 'chronologically' 25yr old in me already wants to set my 7am wake up alarm!!! :)

well yesterday i posted a picture, asking you to guess what it was. none of you came up with the right answer although those who tried did give me some really creative ideas. anyway, the mystery is revealed.

this place is none other than a pierre hermé shop, he has two in paris and this was the rue bonaparte one.

all it is, is an out of the ordinary pastry shop. a little expensive but SO worth it. more works of art.

Pierre Herme
185 rue de Vaugirard 75015 Paris
+33 (0)1 47 83 89 96
72 rue Bonaparte 75006 Paris
+33 (0)1 43 54 47 77

ok so all of my 24 years, i have always bitten my nails and *yuck* the skin around it. it's not even out of stress or anything, just because it's sthg for me to do - out of habit. anyway,all my teenage and adult life, people (read: parents, family, friends, boyfriend) have gone out of there way to tell me that it is an absolutely disgusting habit and that i'm going to have a tumour in my stomach (that would be my nurse mom!!) and that no ones going to want to marry me with nails like mine ( momma again!!) and that i can't scratch backs well (chouchou) etc etc...anyway, so around my birth month (june) i always get very pensive about myself, my life, my future etc. so this year i decided to do this whole detox thing - i've stopped biting my nails for like the last 2 weeks and i kinda have like normal people nails, when i scratch myself it hurts! and i have also accumulated more nail brushes and manicure kits that i would have probably had over the years if i'd never bitten them!! it's mad crazy, i've become obsessed about keeping them clean and stuff, since i get dirt under my nails super quickly now. anyway, the other detox thing is that i have kinda stopped smoking - i don't know if this is just a phase or if this IS IT, but i have not had a cig for like 10 days now (i started smoking like 10 years ago - more or less 2 packs a day) and i feel good, also i have stopped drinking alcohol, but that's been going on for like 2 months now. :)
now i just need to discipline myself to drag myself out of bed every morning (or atleast 5 mornings a week) to get this jogging thing going regularly!

yeah so bit by bit things are changing, going well. another big change is that i'll finally be moving in with chou this winter. i shall also be leaving paris after having spent 7 yearsof my life here. i'll be moving to the south of france for a big chunk of my life now. adventures!!! YAY!